Let me in your head!

[rumtastique]

This is going around the f-list, and like some others, I need reading material.

This will be one of my few public posts, and I encourage everyone to dump in their two (or four or six) cents. I want you to post anything that you want.

Anything.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.

Then, if you want: put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Comments

[fiannaharpar.livejournal.com]

I have the urge to beat the crap out of every person that you've dated who has treated you the way that they've treated you.

I am also incredibly happy that you and J are together, because he is so good to you.

[foxxydancr.livejournal.com]

To some extent, they treated me the way they did because I let them, because I didn't have the sense to make good decisions. That doesn't make them less culpable, but I claim some responsibility for those actions.

I appreciate that though. And yes, he is.

[gypsymila.livejournal.com]

Can I help you beat them up? I think that'd be a lot of fun.

[foxxydancr.livejournal.com]

thanks....:)

[(Anonymous)]

I'm afraid my friends only keep me around because I do things for them. And I'll do just about anything my friends ask me because I'm afraid that if I don't, they won't be my friends anymore.

[oushi.livejournal.com]

Dude - whoever wrote this took it right out of my head! Lord, that's a little scary!

[foxxydancr.livejournal.com]

apparently it's a common sentiment. weird.

[foxxydancr.livejournal.com]

if it's any comfort (i.e. if you're one of my friends and not a random stranger) be aware that I don't make friends with an eye to "what I can get out of them." Chances are, if you know me and I hang out with you, it's probably cause I think you're nifty.

[fiannaharpar.livejournal.com]

That's sad, and a very difficult thing to feel. I'm sorry that you value yourself so little, and I understand it because sometimes I do the same thing.

If you're a friend of mine, you can rest assured that i'm not your friend because of what you can do for me. Because I believe it's wrong to treat someone that way.

[gypsymila.livejournal.com]

I've had that fear. I really don't think it's true, but it stinks to feel that way.
The trick is to remember that you like them. If you like them, they must be cool people. Cool people don't do that to people. Therefore, they must not be doing that to you.
Seriously.

[margarita_r]

Sometimes I think that I culturally clash with a lot of people and I really have difficulties handling it. But regarding the people around me (friends/aquaintances), that's mostly fine.

[(Anonymous)]

Like anonymous poster previous mentioned, I also feel sometimes that people are friends with me for what they think they can get. I get stepped on alot.

I also fear being left behind.

[(Anonymous)]

I've been possessed- or at least I think I have. I don't remember it, but the people who were there told me scary things about what happened, and they don't talk to me anymore.

[(Anonymous)]

I can't help but have sexual thoughts about the Amish when I see them.

[jillzz.livejournal.com]

When I first moved to Pittsburgh I had no job and didn't have any friends for a long time. I only new Matt (my then fiancee). He used to travel for business quite a bit and I used to be afraid that no one would notice if I up and died when he was away, that I would just lay there dead until he came home to find me.

This fear also happened when we moved to London in 2001 and then back to Pittsburgh last year.

I hated that feeling of being so alone in the world with no one else but him to notice if I didn't show up one day.