When I first moved to Pittsburgh I had no job and didn't have any friends for a long time. I only new Matt (my then fiancee). He used to travel for business quite a bit and I used to be afraid that no one would notice if I up and died when he was away, that I would just lay there dead until he came home to find me.

This fear also happened when we moved to London in 2001 and then back to Pittsburgh last year.

I hated that feeling of being so alone in the world with no one else but him to notice if I didn't show up one day.